If you were to compair me afew months ago and now, who would say i'm still the same? Thinking back, i realised that i've changed alot... Some is to forget the past, others is to try and be a better person... But i've realised that my temper has gone worst... I've been thinking about things and trying to find out how to not be slightly angry whenever something happens or not to even give the slightest attitude... But for some people, they have just taken advantage of me trying not to be angry cause sometimes when i think about the day's happenings, i realised that some people do take advantage of people temper... Anw, Played soccer today and it's quite alright i guess... ((: My cough's getting worst... cant run much now if not will cough alot... Today's soccer was more of walking cause i tried running but ended up coughing haha.. Okay i've got lots of assignments to hand up this week... Shit ass... Oh well, i'm trying my best to be happy now guys... Give me just some more time to adjust and i should be fine... ((: Everything's coming to an end soon... Dec's coming too and idk to go around with my mum not... she's been asking me to go quite afew trips to malaysia and afew other countries... Stupid school assignments! okay i g2g... Goodbye take care and God bless... Always be happy! ((:
9:38 PM
goodbye...
Thursday, November 5, 2009
idk why cant u belive me? You ask me questions and i tell you the truth, but just why wouldnt you belive me? Since young, you've always been like that to me... WHY! Always blaming me for things i didnt do... Always 1st in your mind when something spoils, Always 1st in your mind when you need help... Anything bad happens or anything that spoils, you just blame me without even asking the rest... And even when i tell you i didnt, or it isnt me, you'll never belive me till someone owns up... WHY! Why must you always make me fucking pissed! why... The world out there, all they care is themselves... Have you ever thought about the other person's feelings? Fucking selfish! Tell me since when did you ever though about MY FEELINGS when you did something to me? All you care about is yourself and still raise your voice when i just raise my alittle... You even fucking slam things acting like you're all right... WHAT ABOUT ME? Have you thought about that? Fuck all that k... I havent been in the best of mood cause i'm going through quite a shit k... And sch's fucking fucked up! Trying my best to run away from all the teachers cause the assignments are never ending! FUCK! You dont know the feeling of whats life now k... It's screwed k and i chose this road myself few months ago... And now, I WANT TO FUCKING U TURN AND I'M GOING TO DO THAT! I'm going to live my life of who i am and what i'm happy with knowing that i'll never regret anything anymore when i look back in the past next time... YES! Sometimes, i get blaimed for things that are misunderstandings from my actions... Even if it means out of goodwill, in some others eyes, you maybe up to no good and they're trying to think what evil things are you up to next... Well, i've always lived life to the fullest and i always help others with my fullest heart... So incase if anything that happens and you ever have the impression or thought that i've done/doing something bad, come clarify it with me anytime, cause for sure it aint something bad... Yes, thats about it... Rather that all these, i've been falling sick for the past 2 weeks... Everything on off... fever, flu, rashes, cough, shorness in breath... Okay everyone, i'm off... Goodbye... Take care and God bless everyone... (:
9:21 PM
goodbye...
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
To say the truth, i've been in a very bad mood... Today i raised my voice at my mum... And i feel very bad about it... It was because of food... FUCK THAT FOOD! i rather starve now... I'm sorry mum... My life's kinda screwed now... I know i can still turn back... But i just dont want idk why... I'm just sorry mum... No more mood to blog... Goodbye everyone... I'm dead tired...
11:16 PM
goodbye...
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Happiness is hard to find indeed...
11:37 PM
goodbye...
Saturday, October 17, 2009
God, i seek for your forgiveness... Sorry that i didnt go novena this week... I've been having lots of problems lately... Sometimes i just wish to just fly off and never come back... I can cry all i want there, cause no body would care cause no one know's me there... I really find it so hard to sleep each night... Since sch has started, it has given me alot more problems cause i couldnt wake up each morning cause the night before, i would have so much difficulty sleeping... Just last night, i was lying on my bed for 4hrs not being able to sleep... I just wanna work all my energy out so that when the night comes, i will just knock out when i hit the bed... I dont wanna grow any smaller... I tried forcing myself to eat alot more and work out less and stop running and whatever... But it's no use... IDK what else to do... I just hope the time come soon... Than at least i can just be alone somewhere where no one know's me... I havent been doing well in sch... Always late and attendence not mark present... Work not up to my standard and lots of bull shit... idk what else is gonna come in my way... But God, i sure hope you'll be there to help me through each and every part and day of life... Goodbye all... Time to go out cause it's boring at home...
4:39 PM
goodbye...
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
The time now is 12.20am!
Sch has started again... Sian... So long hrs pls... )): At least it's a good thing in one way or another... But i may be skipping 1 term of sch due to some reasons... Anw, my body's aching... I need to know the feeling of something i've been looking for... Soon, maybe one day, but i know for sure one day, i will be... ((: Have been having real tough time sleeping in the nights and afternoon... Havent been sleeping in peace... Alot of shit have been happening... But God has always been blessing me with everything to pull through, so i thank you Lord for everything... ((: So yes, goodnight everyone... If i can put a smile on my face, so can you...((:<==(This is to ALL OF YOU!)
12:20 AM
goodbye...
Thursday, October 8, 2009
I really didnt know why i made such promise... All my life, no one has shouted at me. I really tried putting a smile back on my face but i couldnt... I'm sorry if i caused any trouble... And i have my reasons for going back twice...